So! I’m having a wobble. I think it’s just a mini one.
What if it doesn’t work. What if it all goes wrong like our first two cycles. What if I can’t do this with a toddler. (This has to be the most stupid one. I can do this and I will do this)
I had a dream, all my drugs arrived at the very last minute, there were no needles, I couldn’t get hold of any so I could start! So then I start to think, maybe this is my subconscious telling me I don’t really want to do this. But, I know I do want this.
I’ve also started looking at holidays, something I always do when I want to run away. But, I’m not just looking I’m seriously considering actually booking. Maybe this is a good thing, maybe I need something else to focus on?
So, deep breath!
I have to say in the time I’ve written this I’m feeling slightly better already. Writing things down is a little therapeutic.