I’m not sure how this happened and this is probably going to be really waffley and make no sense. But right now I’m in a complete mess.
On Monday while away on holiday we had a call from the screening midwife to say that twin 2 is high risk for Down’s syndrome. At first I was ok, I was calm and held it together. Hubby was really upset and I tried to reassure him, but the more I thought about it the more upset I’ve become.
We have opted to do a harmony test, rather than an amino, although as I’m carrying twins I need a specialist to carry out the test so one has been booked once I’m 16 weeks.
I’m cross and angry, I’m upset and scared. I have a bump, I look pregnant and 2 days ago I loved my bump, now I want to be sick every time I see it. I’m struggling to sleep and I have a constant headache I cry every time I think about it, I want to hide in a hole and never come out. But, I have little p to think about and I need to put on a brave face for him.
The harmony is booked for as soon as we arrive home and all I can do is hope that it comes back low risk. For now I’ll take one day at a time.