It’s been a long and at times painful journey, but finally my life and family feels complete.
After having one child though fertility treatment it’s hard to explain why you still have the same feelings you had before. The pangs of jealousy when others announce a pregnancy, the flip your tummy does when you see a pregnant woman (and they are everywhere), the guilt that your child will be an only child, the relationship they will not experience and the loneliness. The guilt because the child you have hasn’t made those feelings go away. The ‘you should be grateful’ looks and comments.
It’s not that I didn’t for one minute feel like the luckiest woman in the world. There’s nothing like being surrounded by others who were not so lucky , for their treatment to fail time after time, to make you feel eternally grateful